Thursday Oct. 29 US, Friday Oct. 30th China

So, here we are after 2 very long years aboard UA581 on our way to Beijing China.  To say it feels surreal would pale to put how we feel into perspective.  We are traveling 33000 feet above the world, at 533 miles per hour (NASCAR girl’s dream lol).  We are already missing our boys, and eagerly anticipating meeting our daughter.  I do anticipate the next 3 days to be the hardest, separated from all our children.  We are planning to live in the moment God has given us, not trying to get too ahead of the plan, as not to cause ourselves undue anxiety , easier said then done.  All things are possible with God.

Our trip so far has been wonderful, some turbulent, some confusion as to how to go about certain things like checking into airports, yes we are that pathetically under-traveled.  God has graciously sent us wonderful companions for the journey, and we have enjoyed getting to know each of them more - some traveling with their biological children, some adopted children, some left children at home like us, none of our fellow adopters is without children, which I found very interesting.  It is so good to have so many to share in our anticipation of meeting our children, and knowing that it is still 4 days away but will be here before we know it!!  We share our stories of how we got here, the wait, the referral day, the preparation for such a long trip.  Each story unique but amazingly similar in our desires to add to our families with these special beautiful children. 

5119 miles to go to our destination, and miles to go before I sleep, and miles to go before our lives forever change.  As an expectant mother, I would spend hours mulling what was to be for my baby.  What would they look like, would their temperament being easy going or hyper like me, would they be good sleepers?  I am still dreaming what Faith will be like, though I know what she looks like, there is still those same questions of temperament and sleep - but additionally is something I never considered with boys.  Will she love me?   I know you will all start typing away comments, of course she love you, how could she not love you, etc.  I would do the same if I read it on someone else’s blog, and I trust that eventually we’ll be able to come to some type of love consensus -- the difference is now there is some uncertainty to when, and how where with an infant it is easier.  Bonds are built by completed cycles of trust, of proximity and closeness, and of having needs met.   The one thing I don’t worry about is needing her to hear my voice or my words to establish that bond -- if you re-read what brings people together, you’ll see all of that can be accomplished through action, not dependent on word!

Its now nearly 5 p.m. we’ve been on the journey just shy of 12 hours -- I am surprisingly filled with a peace that is beyond understanding.  Before I departed I opened a card that sang out, “God is in Control”, then read a note from a little friend that encouraged me on the journey.  I have had the opportunity to pray the rosary twice, not out of fear as in past flights for safety lol but as a way of mediating on the blessings of my faith, and this trip.   My dear friends, and even strangers, reading this blog, and praying us along on this journey - May God bless you in this adoption - as you see His Glory revealed.